I wanted to talk to you guys, about something I have been struggling with, as well the power of sharing with people the battles and things you are dealing with. (Ecclesiastes :4:12) I want to say that if you looked at my previous post called "internal conflict," I mention lust and being tempted by the enemy. In this post I want to bring out details about my battle with it, and that I am still dealing with lustful issues, such as masturbation as well as pornography. Before you turn away, you may ask why am I doing this, and honestly because Jesus told me to is the simple answer, but I did not do this for you, and frankly I don't care if you stop following me because of it.
I felt on my heart, that I need to get to a place where the only person I need and want to depend on is Jesus. Not the addiction, not the masturbation not lustful pride, anxiety, not this or that, not my boy friend, or girlfriend, my wife or my husband, but to be dependent on Christ and who he is, and better yet to stand firm on who he says that I am. (Ephesians 2:10, Psalms 46:1)
We haven't gotten to the why yet, why am I doing this, why am I saying come clean about things in your life, the struggle that you have been through, the struggle and things you are currently dealing with? Simple answer again, is there is power in your testimony, there is power in your walk. " Death and life are in the power of your tounge, they that love it shall eat the fruit" ( Proverbs 18:21) You as an individual, as you tell people about the things in your life, about the things you are dealing with, about the pride and lust about the problems in your life, it takes power away from the enemy. WHY?
Because, what is the enemies job, to isolate you, to make you feel that you are worthless, to make you feel like you can not fight back, to make you feel that you have to depend on yourself, to make you depressed, to make you think no one love you, to make you think you are damaged, to make you feel you are a slave to the things of your past. (John 10:10) Why? because he is scared of you, he knows you have the holy sprit living inside of you that is more powerful than the things you are facing, you are more powerful then the enemy. It doesn't seem that way, but Satan's only weapon he has is deceit, is the lies he is telling you. So you made it this far, I want to ask you something, Satan's only real power is the power over us we allow him to have. So the fear we feel to step out and be bold, to step out and tell someone your story, to tell someone your past. To share your personal relationship with God. That is the enemy trying to stop you from doing the very thing God called you to do. " heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse the lepers, cast out demons. " ( Matthew 10:8 )
I did not write this for you guys, I wrote it to break the chains of my own heart, and to step out in faith to do the things that scare me. My prayer is this, that we can step out of our fear and into the faith that can not be broken, that can not be unafraid. ( 2 Timothy 1:7) But to an increased desire with you, and with who you called us and made us to be, because of Christ we are made free, and with him in us, we are called to be conquerors.
(Romans 8: 31-39)
31 What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32 He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? 33 Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. 34 Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. 35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? 36 As it is written:
37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[b] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
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