Hey internet,
Well I'm not going to try and tell you guys about a particular topic. I want to actually get deep and tell you guys something that's going on in my life. To start, my mother is possibly on her death bed. My father, as loving as he is suffers from chronic depression, my sister is developmentally delayed, and has both ADD, and ADHD. regardless of what I deal with family wise, I wanted to talk to you about how I felt and why, and what the enemy was doing, regardless. I am doing what I think Jesus has put on my heart.
To start I have been lustful, and my girlfriend as well as myself new it was an issue and felt the best course of action was to not be in a relationship until we worked through these issues. It was the beginning when we broke up, and even why we were together I knew it was something Jesus was working on. I said okay to the break up. Time and time again I would lust and fall, and I kept asking Jesus to take it. He said he will but I was hanging on to it. It said one thing, your mind may want to get rid of something, and know that what you are doing is wrong, its another thing to do it and say it with your heart. I knew that lust of the flesh was keeping my physical self fine, but my heart was being ripped apart, I kept finding myself distancing my relationship from God.
So this lasted for weeks, and I new my relationship between myself and him needed to be repaired. So I went to church and the preacher said lets burry it, get baptized. I was like okay, ( I will do a baptism thing later) So I did, and to make a long story short I lust was broken off my life. Now I told you that to tell you this. Rest in the truth of what he did in your life. Let me explain.
I would sit at home an I would start getting this whisper from Satan, yeah go ahead, lust Robbie It will feel good, you can disobey God you are already forgiven what's one more time going to hurt. You can do it. I then heard this presence and I know it was Jesus and he was talking to Satan. He said why are you trying to tempt my son, you know he and I are one, he is covered in my blood he is righteous, he doesn't need to lust to feel satisfied he knows that I love him, that I died for him and that regardless of the situation he is mine and he is uniquely and wonderfully made that I have a plan and a purpose over his life, and his weakness, this battle is all apart of my plan and that my strength is made perfect in his weakness. So be gone Satan you have no authority over him anymore.
I wanted to tell you all that tonight, that the enemy or that thing that is in control over your life, it doesn't have to be, and if you want to break free of that thing, and claim victory in Jesus and except him as your lord and savior, just say this prayer.
Dear heavenly father,
I confess with my mouth that you sent your son Jesus to die for me. I pray that you forgive me of my sins ( you can list them) and I desire to be in a relationship with you, and that I can have eternal life with you forever in heaven. I pray this in Jesus name
Amen.
